My Pain
Tonight, I want to share about what I am feeling.
I don’t know what I am feeling now, but the important thing, I am very happy to know you and be closer. Ya… it’s the truth. Now, after we shared about our story nowadays, I felt closer with you, I think, it’s real that I own you (you are my girl friend and the candidate of my wife..hehe), but look at the fact! I am Indonesian and you are Malaysian. Sometimes, I ask to my self “is it right or wrong?” I think, why don’t we look for someone special in our own country? It’s easier to find them. But ya,,, we have discussed it and both of us agree that if we are soul-mate, God will help us to unite our love. Amen….
Now, I just ask your trust. You need to know, I’ll try to not make you disappointed. It’s not a promise, but just wanna show you that I am fighting to be serious with you. Just believe in me and let me prove it with my love. A big question which always disturbs me is, how can I prove my love to you? Whereas we are just able to communicate via chatting, not face to face, even by phone. It’s complicated, right? Is there a solution for this situation? I don’t think so, except if I have to go there to meet you, it’s the solution, right? Perhaps, I should collect much money to go there, but it’s just not about buying a ticket. Do you understand what I mean? My salary will be not enough to bring me there ‘cos I am just an ordinary worker, not a business man, or a leader of the company who can take the trip to other country that they want.
Ya… I am not hypocrite dear... Money is one of troubles to unite our love
Is it just our emotion? So, we don’t care and think about this or is it a true love? Though, we don’t know each other yet. I don’t know what I am feeling now dear,,, it’s my pain.
Tonight, I just wanna share my pain… Let’s find the solution to solve this situation together, dear… ‘cos I love you, I like you, I am so interested in you ‘cos you are so beautiful but still humble and kind. It’s hard to find someone like you here and I feel so lucky meeting you
One more dear. I am collecting documentations about my family, house, village, etc. I will share you later
